Issues . . .

NERVES . . . Nerves . . . nerves . . .

Some people do not struggle in this area at all. I guess we all struggle with something.

I have always had issues with fears, had phobic qualities . . . often guarded . . . trust issues sometimes, . . . preferring sometimes to wall . . . instead of let go.

I was a people pleaser most of my life. Not that I did, . . . just tried.

& I now see I also tried to be a God pleaser for at least a period of time.

Know what I figured out so far?

Well, . . . God knows it--- even when we don't.

+ People? Hmm. Well, you'll never please everyone all the time, can't please most people most of the time, and rarely will please anyone particular for very long.

Oh you can try. Someday sometime that hamster wheel will either spin itself out . . . or you will.

Anyway, lately it almost feels as if I had a relapse of sorts in this particular area.

Instead of trusting things I felt I already had answers inside about . . .

Instead of trusting God . . .

I let myself get uptight about a few things. I caused a few people a little un-needed stress and caused myself a lot of it.

I had it over a house that isn't even mine.

I had it over a daughter who really needs to take a look at how she is treating me instead of the other way round.

I had it over a friend who was visiting, and when she came she didn't even visit!

& I had it today after a disagreement, worrying after that all might be lost if it wasn't fixed "right now". When in reality, maybe nothing needed fixed.

Maybe they are allowed to feel whatever they are feeling, . . . but maybe I am too, and I don't need to worry endlessly that I have to make something up.
Maybe nothing needs made up.

My issue, probably containing various sin compenents all working together and leaving me frazzled, frustrated and tired.

God forgive me.

The Word says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Philipians 4:6

Corrected . . .