Mom

Today is Mother's Day. My mom is dead of this earth. She passed on in late summer of 2006. It would be very easy to allow myself to get lost in the missing her part, . , . And kind-of forget the passing on part. SHE PASSED ON, meaning, she's with God now. She's got no more pain, no more things overwhelming her until she finally worries, no more sickness. She's whole. She's not only at peace but in peace- every moment of not her DEATH- but her continued "LIFE". Wow. True, I sure do miss her . . . Miss how when she was well she always looked younger than her age. Miss how everyone thought she was so pretty (she was), even beautiful . . . Miss how stoic she could be through some of the hardest things. Miss her pork chop gravy and her smile- and those blue eyes that could caress you or seem to look right into your soul--- and always seem to see the more you just didn't have words for. I miss her generosity and her love of music. Miss seeing her draw someone just as they were. + I sure miss her telling me "I love you". Mostly though, I just miss her. *I sat straddled on her bed the day she died here . . . I saw her last breath and could not breathe myself as I saw it escaping . . . But I also saw her eyes pop open and her hands raise as the angels came to usher her in. + I believe gettIng to witness that was more for my brother and son and I to witness than for my mom. *After all- she was already on her way! Happy Mother's Day Mom! + Thank You, Lord for letting me have her for awhile here.