Walking It Out

There have been many changes. Sometimes I have done well under the pressure of it all, other times I have felt like a wet cat trapped in a cardboard box wondering how to get out. My life has drastically changed. Everything about it has changed, actually. My job has expanded and I also have had two branches sprout for me, one being a small percentage owner in an unrelated export business and the other a vending business I felt led to begin. I will say in many ways I do not feel I am where I once was. On the other hand, I somehow feel I am exactly where God knew I would be. Despite my seeming to have fallen off the face of the earth to many Christians I know, or the ones on this blog, . . . I have remained with God and speaking to Him, with Him, this whole time. There has been a territory move, and in more than just my living. The entire arena of people have changed and the "mission field" that maybe stands before me is much different than the one I used to stand in. I am affiliated with bikers now. I knew some in the past, just wasn't hands on or around enough at the time. This did not happen because I longed for this thing. In fact, to tell the truth, I was not excited at all. My view of this was obscured in the beginning because all I saw was my own pre-conceived notions. Admittedly, there is a stubbornness in me, therefore, I really stuck to my own stubborn opinion. I also, unfortunately, probably missed why I was brought there in the first place and maybe most importantly, what God might want to do. God has put a new desire in my heart. I know it's Him and not me. Out of nowhere, and probably initially with a grimace, ha ha, I now seem to have thoughts of being a bike chaplain in my heart more and more. I now have been in this new venue long enough to see there is a need and to also recognize there is a mission field. It's almost as if He had to take me to what I perceived to be the "worst" of places to remind me that He loves and desires these folks just like He loves and desires me. I already knew it. I have already said those very things about all people in all walks of life. Yes, I knew it. I just didn't think that that's where I would be. Then again, there are a lot of places that I did not think I would be. First order, get myself where "I" need to be, with His help. Second order, pray more, read more, listen more and never never never think I know what's going on. I do believe that someday, probably soon, I will be a bike Chaplain. & I also strangely believe, that this thing I tried to avoid----- just like "ministering" in the past, . . . will become something I love in my heart. I look forward to that. I am just walking it out. I am sure not doing it perfectly but I am walking. God bless you all. May His light shine upon you and through you. In the Name of Jesus! Amen!