When You Have To Make a Decision

We are all faced with decisions all the time. Big ones, small one, hard ones, . . . easier ones-

I used to think and think and over-think so much that for a number of years it was hard to make a decision at all. Part of that was depression. & Admittedly, I lived there-for years. It wasn't that I wanted to be there, . . . just had poor set of circumstances and mental and emotional ends were severely frayed. Once I got there, I had a hard time getting out. & I will attest that when you are there, even when you "once knew God" or had believed . . . it isn't always easy to see the light or find it again . . . I am sure the enemy loves to find people in that state, . . . where he can help us be out own worst enemies!

But- decisions . . . not always easy. In fact, they are often very hard.

& I will here tell you all, I haven't always made right ones. Many times I faced off with this or that-and I did not always choose the right way . . .

Here lately though circumstances have presented themselves & me and another person have been trying to make some decisions about life . . .

And to be honest with you-there's one decision that I could easily cave on, because I know that decision could alter my own personal happiness---greatly.

I could say, "Okay-even though it's not what I think God wants- okay" and probably -maybe- have a better chance at retaining something VERY dear to my heart . . .

But- when it came down to sorting through every emotion and every truth, and every past mistake and how things have worked out so far and . . . and . . . and--------

I had to nervously stand on that one point. . . with my heart just breathless . . . hoping it would not take away the very thing I loved . . .

and knowing that it might-----------------

And that's where I AM at.

So, I will continue to pray for you. I know God still hears me and I still hear from Him. -But maybe I could use your prayers also.

Thank you & God bless!

So hard people. So hard.